Isn’t it odd how one phone call can change your life plans. I think one of the best things about life is the uncertainty of each day.
This new plan or thought of a plan is exciting. I could so see myself being in that life and loving every moment of it.
I think the reason I’m so excited about a new plan/life is that this one ant workin out so well.
I’ve come to the realization that I hate my job. And life is much too short to be stuck in this unhappy spot.
I’m thinking about giving my two weeks’ notice and just being done with it.
I need a car. So I can move somewhere far from here. So I can’t start over.
I hope all of this isn't just wishful thinking.
I think I have been looking at life through the wrong eyes.
meaning I’ve been doing everything I think I should do or what I’m told I should do, and not focusing on what I want to do. like going to school and not living in Florida.
I really dislike Florida and most of the people that reside here. They are so stupid and I do not mean just they act dumb sometimes like I mean uneducated and ignorant! I can’t stand that!
I named this journal running down a dream. I did so for a few reasons.
1. It’s a good Tom Petty song
2. Remind myself to do the things that are important to me.
3. And to always remember to keep on my own path and live in the moment.
so I watched Into the Wild like a few months ago and the same thoughts have been going through my head live free live in the now live in the moment live wild, and the more I think on it the more I want to just pack up and go adventuring and exploring!
When did that become so bad and so hard to do? We have put up all these concrete walls around ourselves and we think they make us safe and happy.
We all have become so disconnected form everything. Take our food for example, almost every person I know has never even seen a dead chicken let alone dismembered one for cooking. It may sound weird to say those thing because like who wants to dismember anything but I mean come on get in there and get ur hands dirty it’s not that bad and when the meal is done and cook I step back and say wow look at what I’ve done I made a lovely dinner for my family! Its great satisfaction to know that you did things yourself not just went and got frozen chicken and put it in the microwave or worse just got some fast food. When did it become ok to feed your kids this high fat processed shit? Can u imagine what it’s doing to their insides! Or what it’s doing to yours! And I’m just as guilty as other people but I think it’s not too late for us all to change our ways. and I’m not saying by only organic or be a vegan; be you, but instead of getting frozen chicken get fresh and cut it up urself get fresh meat and grind it at home plant a veggie garden in your back yard, I just think it would be so much better for everyone if we all try to get a bit closer to the earth and the old ways of doing things, they work for so long they can work again.
Man I really go off on tangents some times.
However, it feels good to put this out there to people other than my mom hahaha.
Poor her she always has to hear me rant and rave.